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You know, I've always hated you. HATED YOU.
You were always so domineering, so one sided.
It was your fault I grew up to be who I am now.
You were never willing to admit you were wrong.
I wanted to have fun, but you didn't let me.
My slightest tantrum made you to hit out at me.
My smallest failure made you lose belief in me.
I wanted to dream, you made them into nightmares.
I wanted to chase desire, you made me chase success.
I faltered at a hurdle, you tried to push me away.
I've realized that I've always hated you. HATED YOU.
Now you are gone; this world has not your imprints.
I've realized that I've always loved you. LOVED YOU.
I thought you pushed me away from goals, but it was failure.
I thought you made me chase success, I forgot you didn't tell how.
I thought you gave me nightmares, I forgot I'd lost my dreams.
I thought you lost belief in me, but I know know it was your worry.
I thought you hit out in anger, but I know now it was to teach me.
I thought you didn't let me have fun, but I know now I didn't know what fun was.
You weren’t willing to admit you were wrong, but I wasn’t always right.
You maybe the reason why I’m morose, but you also made me a survivor.
You may have been domineering, but you taught me to stand up for myself.
I’ve realized that I’ve always loved you. LOVED YOU.
Now you are gone; this world has not your imprints.
These realizations, it shall remain always hidden.
I’ve hid them from you, hid them from myself, never wanting to believe in them.
You were my guiding light; no. You are my guiding light still.
Who I am, it is all because of you. I wish I could let my tears be hidden.
Today, I stand at your grave, realizing how much you meant to me.
Dad, would it have made a difference if I’d have told you all this before?
Thoughts…hidden. Feelings…hidden. Love…hidden. Happiness…hidden.
I’ve only regret for all this now…that’s one thing that I can never hide.
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